Don't you just feel tired, exhausted and all you want to do is to just sit next to your partner, having him in your arms, not saying a thing, but just knowing he is there, is enough to make things better?
Yes, I am in that state where I am going to go crazy with all these plannings! Its the last lap of three months, and how much to look forward for my wedding, I am more excited about my honeymoon! Hahaha.
Truth is, things are not going to be more easier than I expected when its like the final lap of the race. I am honestly scared. I am not a bridezilla, am I? I don't go around screaming at vendors, I don't do diy projects, and stressing about it, cause I absolutely know I have zero talent on diy stuffs! Haha. Probably not meeting the other half is making me stress.
The constant thinking whether I could be a good wife, a good daughter still to my parents and family and a good in law to my partner's family! I cant cook anything, I don't find myself being able to do things my mother would normally do. Haha. Where I imagined myself having to share the same bed with another person. I cant have anymore pink room, or anything pink to my liking. Haha. What if one day we have a fight, now, all we do is just shut our phone and sleep. How do I shut him when we be sharing the same bed? Hahah. Yes, I am overly imaginative! Let's hope my future husband would be a nice husband.
Most of the days lately are spend on me working, not taking any off, cause I rather have myself working than to have any rest day, cause I probably will be an insane partner who will keep on ranting, and seek for attention from him. Hahaha.
I pray that I have the strength to go through these last few bits of me being a single woman! This is just a random post of me ranting on my mixed feelings and emotions! I cant believe we are left with 90 plus days! Mak aiiii, seriously, nak pengsan bole? Hahaha.